"My Diagnosis and My Reality" - explained by A.J.

compassion and understanding for all

The other day while chatting with A.J. the topic came up about what makes people like or hate other people!

I tried to explain how it was hard to know what others may think or feel about things they don't know or understand,

sometimes they may be a little frightened of something or someone that is "different"

Some people are taught as they grow up their way is the best way, so anything else is wrong.

I explained that if they aren't used to seeing or knowing there are different ways of being, living, or acting, they feel that it can't be a good thing.

If they see or hear others reacting to differences in a negative way, they believe they too must act negatively towards the same things.

It is very sad to see how some may behave, we can only hope one day we all understand a little more and learn that differences are a good thing and can also be helpful in other ways.

No-one can change another person's thoughts-actions-mannerisms, as long as it isn't harming others they should be allowed to be themselves, to do what they like doing, enjoying what they have available to them.

A.J. then stated - "I know I'm different and I tell everyone what makes me who I am…."

I have many disabilities -mental and physical-

Generalised Anxiety

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

Attention Deficit Disorder/ADHD

Aspergers Syndrome

Autism Spectrum Disorder

ODD

Environmental/Developmental Trauma History

Hyper Sensitivity

Visual Impairment

Spinal Scoliosis

My Superiorities: Aspergers Syndrome, and Autism Spectrum Disorder

Just me: OCD, ADHD, and Hyper sensitivity

Downfalls: The rest

My anxiety leads to literally every disorder and syndrome,

and THAT is why I can't get a break from it.

For example:

OCD: one thing out of place, that is the start.

Hyper Sensitivity: this builds up throughout the entire day.

ADHD: when I don't move, after 80 seconds, I already feel like everything 'annoys me'.

And the rest are just as bad

Everything is linked to my anxiety, and THAT is why I can't escape a full 24 hours of discomfort WITH people, society, and every other thing, like noises and bright uneven lights.

ALSO:

With OCD everything must be perfect, the absolutely tiny things like how china is shaped I notice it, but I don't worry too much, (*although it still annoys me)

BUT with Hyper Sensitivity every little thing I 'sense' is NEVER perfect,

OCD equals Hyper Sensitivity to show me every little detail better

AND

Hyper Sensitivity equals my OCD to put me down from how big everything really is.

So OCD to Hyper Sensitivity hurts

And Hyper Sensitivity to OCD hurts

So that in itself is torturous.

BUT this shows why I am always in anxiety,

These things exist,

but people don't seem to get the idea, so they made studies and called these group of people

"those with specific DISORDERS"

to make them feel better at the fact that we go through some hard stuff,

So I used THEIR "descriptions" to explain to others who don't understand realism.

"I'm not afraid to tell them, 'cause that's me.

And that is hopefully one day helping people to understand we have a benefit too……."

Me - "WOW! ……just WOW!!!!!!"