Accepting what is, regardless of the outcome…..

I have been trying all day to make sense of an emotional turmoil that's been placed before me.

The struggles we face, for many reasons, can be hard on any family, no-one is immune from the roller coaster we can find ourselves being hurled upon.

Everyone has a journey they need to take…..

Either fun, enticing, fulfilling, scary, intimidating, or disheartening.

Regardless, we still have to progress forward to get to the end, and begin the next stage of our life.

For me, on the immediate home-front things are positive, with the usual hurdles we face. After the first few months of this year being on such a high, I thought we could finally say we've turned a corner,

With the NDIS in place, we are now finally accessing the right supports and services for A.J. Things are progressing nicely.

Attended this years first school's IEP meeting, I'm pleased with the progress and instigation of supports there as well.

Unfortunately in other areas, things aren't as smooth sailing as we'd like them to be.

-My father has been unwell and this month he faced a few operations and situations where we are still on standby keeping a vigilant watch on his recovery.

-My husband still faces the random effects of his PTSD, something he finds so hard to address and seek help with.

Family is so important for so many reasons and no matter how we face life or what we personally do, there will always be times when we address something that can become a negative.

No-one is perfect and I'm quick to admit that of myself, I know I have done things the wrong way in the past, things I regret, regardless, it's still emotional when we see things crumbling around us, while feeling we have no way of controlling or resolving the situation we're facing.

Estranged family members also cause a strain on us at times. Well for me it does anyway.

I find it difficult to comprehend and deal with some situations.

This can overshadow other positives in our life, knowing there is someone missing from important milestones, events, or functions, that were arranged as family gatherings.

Reaching out to someone important to me that I haven't seen or spoken to in years, someone I think of and worry about every single day, and all I got was abuse, accusations, and down right negativity.

It constantly amazes me how some people are so full of hatred, criticism, and selfishness, focusing on some negative thing they feel has occurred, without trying to resolve it, forgetting and ignoring all the positive and good memories they have experienced and could still have in their lives.

I will NOT be blamed for doing the things that needed to be done, was expected and left for me to do, then later taken as me interfering and doing the wrong thing.

I won't deny it hurts, cos it bloody-well hurts a lot.

I am not a selfish spiteful person, so how can someone twist my generosity to become anything less than a caring, giving act?

I don't state this for sympathy or attention, I state it to show that no matter who you are, we all face similar situations that can crumble our very being…

Sorry for my vent, I think I needed a little perspective, although at the same time I realise some things can never be explained, understood, or resolved, we just have to accept it and move on.

Yes, I am like everyone else, facing unexpected situations that no-one should have to deal with.

It's times like this we should always appreciate the small things and little moments we have, remember to tell the one's we love they're appreciated, never stop saying how much you love them.

Happiness and calm to all xxxx